Friday, October 15, 2010

A Pound of Flesh...

I'm a little sore and tired, but otherwise doing very well with all things considering. They removed the bump and the surrounding area – about half a square foot. The surgeon filleted all the skin and tissue down to the muscle. I've not seen the actual incision site all stapled up, as I must leave my bandage on for at least two days before I can remove it, but the bandage reaches from my nipple to my shoulder blade. It's quite large.

Above: Me enjoying a saltine cracker and some Ginger Ale after surgery.

It's an odd sensation. It feels as though someone has tightened my internal corset. It doesn't hurt per se (unless I cough or laugh), but it is tender. I'm prohibited from doing any heavy lifting or bending. I joked with one of the nurses that I had to rush home to rake some leaves. She didn't think it was that funny and I was quickly rewarded with a smart of pain for my bad humor. They say that now is one of the most dicey parts; the concerns are that they successfully removed all cancerous cells and that the wound does not become infected. For me, this list also includes paying for everything. I am trying to focus on my recovery and not on the mounting medical bills. I have faith that everything will work; I have, after all, already paid a pound of flesh.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Thursday Giveaway...

This week, one lucky winner will snag these coral-colored Sari print ceramic components courtesy of Chinook Jewelry. They're made of porcelain with a semi-transluscent glaze on the fronts and backs. I love the fabric-inspired motif with its graceful, floral arabesques. This set of components would be perfect for making a bracelet and a pair of matching earrings. You can check out more examples of ceramic goodies from Chinook Jewelry on Mellisa's website or on her Etsy shop. You can also check out her blog for even more insight into her work.

Curious about what else Mellisa has been up to? She recently started a new venture called, Bead Show Travel. It's an online resource for making travel arrangements for bead shows across the country. Be sure to check out the comprehensive Bead Show Calendar and check out the helpful hints on how to plan for a successful buying experience. CLICK HERE to visit the site.
To win these lovely ceramic components, all you have to do is leave a comment on this blog post. It's that easy! One lucky winner will be randomly selected from the comment section of this post on Monday (October 18th) at midnight EST. Please leave your name and contact information if it doesn't already appear next to your comment. This giveaway is open to all participants, including international readers!

Bonus Points: Do you really want this set of beautifully patterned ceramic pieces? If so, you can earn additional entries by blogging, updating your Facebook page, and/or Twittering about this Thursday Giveaway. Don't forget to add your act of social media kindness as a SEPARATE comment to this blog post for your extra shot at this set of ceramic lovelies.

Today...

Today is the day. In just a few minutes, I'll be leaving for the hospital to have the rebellious cells removed from my body. I'm a little bit nervous. They'll be putting me under and it's the first time I'll be out cold. Isn't it strange, the things we worry about? They're removing about half a square foot of skin and I'm worried about being knocked out.

I just wanted to take a moment to thank everyone for their support, well-wishes and encouragement. I feel blessed to have so many people in my corner. Thank you.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

What Inspires You...

Artbeads.com What Inspires You? Necklace ContestArtbeads.com has just launched their "What Inspires You?" jewelry contest! Share your inspiration and a design based on it, for your chance to win! The Grand Prize Winner will take home a $500 gift certificate. CLICK HERE to find out more on how you can win!

Waiting Rooms...

I've recently been spending a lot of time in waiting rooms. These rooms, with the configuration of chairs and stacks of magazines are aptly named. You wait. Sometimes you wait minutes and other times you wait hours. One would think that this would be an ideal place to enjoy a few moments to read, but I have a hard time focusing. I'm always waiting for them to call my name or make announcements.

I'd like to think of myself as a patient person, but in truth, the act of waiting in correlation to my health reeks havoc on my nerves. I can wait months for packages to arrive from foreign countries without a sweat, but to wait for some simple lab results... it's torture!

So, I've devised a way for me to pass the time and do so productively.

I think about the future and my plans. I think about all the things that I'm looking forward to doing and this seems to help. I can plan and plot and the waiting doesn't seem so bad.

For instance, I'm excited for the workshops this January and February! I can assure you that it's going to be a magical time. We'll be treasure hunting and exploring and cooking and making. All of my favorite things! I will also be sharing some of our secrets. I'm creating some handouts which basically summarize everything I know about composition, which can then be used to take photos, paint paintings, create collages, or dissect the work of others. I spent a small (actually a rather large) fortune on art school to learn these things and will happily share what I know with those who choose to tackle these adventures with us. We'll both be showing how we document our experience and in effect, capture the moment.

Please consider joining us this winter. To find out more, you can CLICK HERE. To sign up, CLICK HERE.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

A Light that Lingers...

I've not talked about my health here lately. Some might say that it's a form of denial or that I'm still in shock. Others might say that I'm just trying to manage – to cope – or that I'm buckled down in survival mode. If you asked someone else, they might say that I'm trying to downplay the severity to prevent others from worrying and to keep the stress at bay.

And all of them would be right... at least partially.

I wrote of beginning a journey. I wrote of accepting reality and stepping forward. And I have. I have begun this voyage. My jeep is still being repaired, so obviously the journey has been a mental, emotional and spiritual one and not a physical one. Even though I haven't traveled thousands of miles, I've gone far. I've delved deeply, examining myself in an internal mirror. When you've splayed yourself wide open, sometimes it's easiest to write about the everyday motions and not about your recent explorations. Sometimes it's easier to keep busy and appear calm and placid on the surface, while the gears below are grinding onwards at a frightening pace.

I walked in the woods, rolling these revelations around in my head. I thought of what legacy I might leave behind. What do I want to remain when I'm gone? I was walking into the woods, into a place I had never ventured before. It was further than I've ever been before. That's when I saw a glint of light at the base of an old tree and found the unintentional legacy of another. I discovered an old dumping ground. At the base of the tree were dozens of bottles, some broken or cracked and others intact. I collected a few, bringing them back from the wilderness.

I set them on top of the table of the deck. The light seemed to collect and pool within the old glass vessels. Some of the glass was so old that it started to turn a shade of faded violet. The easiest of them to trace back, I discovered, dated to the early 1950's. They had been laying at the base of that tree, glittering in the diffused light for over fifty years, if not longer. Season after season the remnants remained, enduring winters and weather.

Someone discarded these things, leaving them behind for me to find.

Colors of Fall with Artbeads.com...

With the changing of the season, the fine folks at Artbeads.com are celebrating the Colors of Fall! They challenged me to design a piece of jewelry based on Pantone's Color Report for Fall 2010. In response, I created a piece I like to call, "Boundless".

I wanted to make something that felt really opulent and luxurious. To achieve this, I used lots of Swarovski crystals and contrasting matte Czech glass beads. I also used bright, shiny jump rings interspersed with the textured chain. I think the varied textures give the necklace a seductive lushness.

I had fun selecting components that embody the Pantone colors. I think the Swarovski crystal topaz Divine Rock Pendant exemplifies Golden Glow perfectly. The Cyclamen Opal Rounds definitely read as Purple Orchid, as does the yellow-green Jonquil bicones as Endive.

The copper chain and lobster clasp expresses Living Coral beautiful. I made some copper headpins which definitely represent the slightly pink, Lipstick Red. The Olivine Swarovski crystal bicones scattered throughout the piece are a dead ringer for Woodbine.

Sadly, the photographs do not capture how closely the Mocca rondelles resemble Chocolate Truffle, nor how the matte grey glass beads capture Oyster Gray. The matte beads have a subtle frosting, which is hard to capture. The pictures make both elements seem much darker than they actually are.

When I think of autumn, I think of plenty. I think of endless fields and clusters of toad lilies. I think of cool days, crisp air, and vibrant color. Although the Pantone colors are not the "conventional" autumnal colors, I think they definitely speak of a season in balance and boundless abundance.

Thursday Giveaway Winner...

The winner for this past week's Thursday Giveaway is Cindy of Purple Froggie Clay Stuff. Congrats! Please email me with your contact information and I'll put your prize in the post. Be on the look on Thursday for more opportunities to win!

Monday, October 11, 2010

Sale Site Columbus Day Sale...

I haven't abandoned the Sale Site just yet. I've culled the selection and am offering up some of the best of my destash at ridiculously low prices. You can save even more using the coupon code, "COLUMBUS" in the Sale Site. That's right, receive an additional 25% off your order! Don't delay, the sale will run until Tuesday, October 12th at 11:59 PM EST.

Margot Potter on Crescendoh...

The delightful, Margot Potter was invited to be a guest curator on Crescendoh. The website is an uplifting look at empowerment through creativity. You should definitely check out her article, "Fitting in through Art". Her words struck a chord with me.


A guest curator also gets to spotlight other artists. Margot was kind enough to shine the light on me. She mentioned that she featured us for our "honesty, transparency and inherent goodness". The cool thing is I will leading a week of workshops called, "Capturing the Moment" this upcoming January with express purpose of sharing how we write from the heart. The week is packed with activities designed to help unlock your Muse, provoke a dialogue between you and the world around you, and learn how I chronicle our experiences.

SwoonDimples Destash Sale...


My friend, Heather Wynn-Millican is making some room and clearing out some very lovely beads in her destash sale. I love her jewelry, her style, and her taste in beads. (I love her too; she's one of the sweetest people ever!) Make sure to swing by her Etsy shop to take advantage of her sale! I'm having a hard time restraining myself! CLICK HERE to visit her shop.

Bead Trust Columbus Day Sale...

My friends at Bead Trust are having a sale to celebrate Columbus Day! You could save 15% off storewide (including findings and designer items) with the promotional code, "COLUMBUS10". Enter this at checkout for HUGE savings!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Beaded Links...


Interested in 3 free online issues of Bead Trends Magazine? Lisa shares the details here and all it takes is a little facebook time.

Tammy has three new jewelry tutorials that incorporate fall jewelry colors.

Always looking to inspire, Art Bead Scene offers up another fabulous finding to use in your handmade artist bead designs!

Are you an animal lover? Cyndi designs a piece to remind her about the importance of slowing down and making time for the small ones in our life!

Carmi fashions a new choker out of felt and a spectacular yard of ribbon.

Sewing is the hottest trend in crafting. Cindy shows how she incorporates sewing into her jewelry designs in this week's Wednesday Wire.

Melanie picks up some treasures during an antique shopping weekend, some of which will be useful for craftiness!

Lorelei is hosting a beading challenge using some cool beads from Michaels, read the post to and learn how to participate! The More the Merrier!

What inspires you? That is a question very near to Jean's heart. Therefore the latest competition from Artbeads is very exciting to Jean and will be to YOU, too! Furthermore, you could win five hundred dollars in beads! Check it out on Jean's blog!

Andrew hosts another great Thursday Giveaway! This week, you could win five, seasonally-inspired, fine silver charms from Melissa J. Lee!

Friday, October 08, 2010

Journey...

They say that time is the great healer. I would argue that it is sleep. When we sleep, we open our minds to the Universe. We can dream. We can dream. We can dream.

I went to bed last night feeling cold and knotted. I felt crushed and confused. I felt a hundred years older.

And then I dreamed...

When I first started to wake, it was as if the answers were all there, neatly laid out before me. As I rose, the answers dimmed and faded, but the taste of them was still on my tongue. That small lingering thing, a trace of something profound was just enough.

For better or for worse, this is the road laid before me. I cannot turn around, but must go forward. I do not do so alone. I am bolstered by my friendships, by my love, by my family, by the generous support of those who wish me well. I am made buoyant, floating above the briars and the brambles. This is the road before me and I must walk down it.

When I woke up, I did not speak. I did not say a word. I walked outside and saw the sun. I saw the electric blue sky and and the fiery flame of autumn leaves. The air was cool and crisp. It stung my lungs as I took deep, gulping breaths. And I knew, that this was the first day on the journey...

Thursday, October 07, 2010

Yuck...

The past few days have been a whole lot of yuck. Dreary skies. Even drearier news. I get told that I have cancer and that it's a common cancer, but that it could be indicative of worse things since I'm so young and this particular kind of skin cancer is only common in much older people. They won't know more until they remove the bump and the surrounding area and do more tests. More tests... more time at the doctors... more time to sit in waiting rooms and on paper-covered examination tables.

Today I was supposed to go to Pittsburgh for some blood tests. It was deceptively sunny out and I was in higher spirits. Isn't it strange that something that potentially gave me cancer could make me feel so much better after the grey days and bleak news? In any event, I had just passed through Murrysville on my way to the city, when I started to hear a rattling when I pushed on the accelerator. Then smoke started to billow out from under the hood.

I pulled over and inspected the car. Antifreeze was gushing all over, splashing the hot engine and sending up noxious fumes. Upon seeing this, I was reminded of my youth when I was involved in martial arts. It was the acute sensation of being kicked in the gut.

In my mind, the antifreeze transformed into dollar signs... evaporating into the air with a hiss and leaking out all over the asphalt. Really, there couldn't be worse timing. It's as if the Universe is playing some kind of cruel joke and I'm the butt of it.

I had the car towed to a mechanic near my home. It was an awkward ride home with the stranger hauling my jeep. I knew if I opened my mouth, everything would come pouring out and I didn't want to burden this man with my troubles. I politely smiled and planned and calculated in my head just how I'm going to pay for this new development. The mechanic won't be able to see it for a week, which gives me a few days figure things out. I won't have my car for a week (if not more), which will definitely put a hamper on my mobility and my options.

I'm done for tonight. I'm going to bed and hopefully when I wake up in the morning, all this yuck will disappear with the rising of the sun.

Thursday Giveaway...

This week, one lucky winner will score these seasonally-inspired fine silver charms courtesy of Melissa J. Lee. The winner will receive a vampiric Bite Me charm, a small Skully charm, a Web charm, a "The Eye Has It Charm", and a mini dragon heart charm. Wouldn't these perfect for a Halloween-themed charm bracelet? Melissa is an award-winning designer who is frequently published and has her designs popping up everywhere. The charms up for grabs are apart of her new line of small charms that was recently launched. To take a look at them CLICK HERE. You can see more examples of her work and her full line of available in her shop and get behind the scenes glimpses on her blog.

To win this stash of fine silver charms from Melissa J. Lee, all you have to do is leave a comment on this blog post. It's that easy! One lucky winner will be randomly selected from the comment section of this post on Monday (October 11th) at midnight EST. Please leave your name and contact information if it doesn't already appear next to your comment. This giveaway is open to all participants, including international readers!

Bonus Points: Do you really want this set of Halloween-themed charms? If so, you can earn additional entries by blogging, updating your Facebook page, and/or Twittering about this Thursday Giveaway. Don't forget to add your act of social media kindness as a SEPARATE comment to this blog post for your extra shot at this set of beading wire.

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

31 Skull Designs: Day Six...

This is another oldie that I dug up from the archives. It features a mini bronze skull charm from my shop! (I'll have to make more, as all of the restocked charms are already sold out!) I paired the bronze charm with goldstone from Bead Trust, chain from Ornamentea and Swarovski crystals and pearls from Fusion Beads. I love the warm, rich colors and the simplicity of the design. It has a lot of movement, which is another thing that I love.

Wikio October Craft Rankings...

I was contacted by the fine folks at Wikio with a sneak peak at the October rankings of the top Craft blogs. I generally don't publish these types of lists, because blogging isn't a competition or a popularity contest... but they've pulled together a really great group of blogs that I think are worth mentioning. I hope that you'll take the time to check them out. I know that many of them are daily stops for me.

Also swing by Lorelei's blog for the top Jewelry Making blogs for October – another great list full of talent and inspiration.

1Simon Says Challenge
2Friday Sketchers
3Craftzine.com blog
4Stamp Something
5Smiling Sally
6Art Bead Scene Blog
7Theme Thursday
8A Southern Daydreamer
9Lorelei's Blog
10Andrew Thornton
11Sew,Mama,Sew! Blog
12Beading Arts
13Carmi's Art/Life World
14Lampwork Diva aka Cindy Gimbrone
15Margot Potter The Impatient Crafter
16How About Orange
17Coloradolady
18Earthenwood Studio Bead Blog
19Meet Me At Mikes
20Spiritual Sundays

Ranking made by Wikio

If you don't see your blog on the list or you aren't ranked as highly as you would like, I wouldn't take it personally. Everyone has their reasons for blogging and if you're happy with your corner of the web, then that's all that matters! Do enjoy the lists as a bit of fun and utilize them as a great resource for finding other quality blogs.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Bead Trends...

I got a package in the mail today. The latest issue of Bead Trends has hit the shelves and included is one of my designs. It's called, "October Skies". The bracelet features a polymer clay bead from Pam Wynn and a shibuichi bird toggle from my family. The issue is beautifully shot and is a definitely autumnal inspiration. Check it out!

31 Skull Designs: Day Five...

This is an oldie, but a goodie. I've been preoccupied with my health and apologize for not making a new skull design today. This one is probably one of my most favorites though. The focal is a Lisa Peters Art ceramic skull wearing a piece of Candice Wakumoto. I've paired it with garnets, Swarovski crystal, sapphires, black tourmaline, onyx and "velvet ruby quartz". You can read all about it by CLICKING HERE.

And So It Is...

I went to the doctor's today for my follow-up visit for the results of the biopsy. I imagined that since my bump was shrinking in size and for all intensive purposes, going away, that the news would be good. Unfortunately, the news was not good. My bump is a well-differentiated squamous cell carcinoma. Basically, it's a form of skin cancer.

I don't know really what to say. Tomorrow I go for blood work. Next week they're going to remove the bump and part of the surrounding area. Then I have a bunch of follow-up visits. Of course I'm worried about the expense of everything. They are going to walk me through trying to get a majority of it paid for, but there are still things that won't be covered. The scary thing is that I can't feel anything. I want to be scared or to cry or to freak out about defective cells in my body, rallying against me... but I can't. I want to be angry and resentful of sunny days... but I can't. I worry about things like how much it's all going to cost. I worry about what will be left unfinished should things take a turn for the worse. All of these worries though are cerebral activities and calculations, like math problems.

Perhaps it's for the best that I am unaffected emotionally.

When I was leaving and talking with the scheduling woman, I sighed. She was very kind and asked me if there was anything wrong. I smiled, trying to comfort and reassure her and said, "Everything is as it is meant to be. I can't do anything, but what needs to be done."

I drove home through the pouring rain, the lights of passing cars flashing by me.

Keeping Organized...

Sally asked in a comment on a previous post how I keep organized and manage my bead stash.

Before I get into my system, I wanted to mention why I do what I do. Since I write for books and magazines, it's important to keep organized on this front. Almost always, you're required to have resource list with the items you used in your projects. Also, when you're pricing your jewelry, it's often helpful to have a reference to see how much money you're putting into each piece and how much money you're going to make. This is particularly important if you wholesale your work. I think one of the reasons why a lot of jewelry artists don't make any money on their pieces is that they sell themselves short. This might be useful when they're starting out and building up a clientele list, but in the long run... it's a place where a lot of people hemorrhage money.

As soon as I get home from a bead show or purchasing materials, I either seal it up in a bag until I have a solid block of time or I sit down and start organizing right then and there. It's helpful to do it as soon as possible! Above is a shot of one of my bead boxes and to the right of it is a close-up.

I use little stickers, but it has been suggested that I could use a spreadsheet. I like the old school system better though, because when I'm making stuff, I don't want to have to go look up a spreadsheet to check a price or material. I just want to glance down and know.

I write down the material, price per strand, where I got it from and how much per bead. It's helpful to count the beads while they're still strung up. I also like to keep the original tags, if possible, and put those at the bottom of the bead bins.

Another thing that I do to help keep organized is maintain relationships with a select number of vendors and artisans. It's true that every now and then, I'll see something and have to have it, but for the most part, I try to control who I spend my money with. I think it's a good way to keep track of where I get things, as well as to support companies that I want to see succeed. I think it's also a good way of "employing personal shoppers". If you've got a good relationship with your vendor, they'll know your tastes and keep an eye out for materials you'll most likely want and in a price range that you can afford. When they go to the dealer only showrooms, they won't be flying blindly.

Thursday Giveaway Winner...

The winner for this past week's Thursday Giveaway is rosemaryschild. Congrats! Please email me with your contact information and I'll put your prize in the post. Be on the look on Thursday for more opportunities to win!

Monday, October 04, 2010

Falling Away...

The sun sets earlier and earlier each day. I can smell the smoke of wood stoves and fireplaces on the air; I can smell the richness of fallen leaves being reclaimed by the earth and the something sweet of autumn. They say that the first frost is on its way. I've packed away my shorts and flip-flops. My thoughts turn inward, towards an instinct to nest and prepare for the coming cold.

I think of stocking shelves and filling cupboards. I think of bringing out the warm blankets and the heaters. But I also think of purging and scraping away the detritus that's built up. I feel almost like a tree, dropping leaves. Already I've packed up some boxes to take to Goodwill. I've filled bags and bags with trash. I've pruned some of my social media outlets, removing spammers and lurkers with ill-intentions. Soon I'll have to empty the planters filled now only with dead annuals and crispy, brown leaves. I'm shedding things, preparing for a colder season.

31 Skull Designs: Day Four...

For this design, I used a colorful ceramic skull bead from Gaea. Gaea has some really fantastic skulls in her Day of the Dead series. To go with the skull bead, I used some faceted pearls from Talisman Associates Inc., goldstone from Bead Trust, Swarovski crystal pearls from Fusion Beads, and brass and copper chain from Ornamentea. To pull it all together, I used a decorative toggle clasp from Vintaj.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Beaded Links...


Take a trip down "memory wire lane" as Lisa remembers discovering this versatile beading staple.

For those who like immediate gratification jewelry, there's a new line coming to your local Michael's called Trinkettes.

The Art Bead Scene Carnival Bloggers write about renewal for September.

Auntie's Beads supplied some wonderful faux sea glass beads for Cyndi to use in a new design!

Carmi's new BELIEVE necklace starts out with a beaded embroidery.

To badly paraphrase Shakespeare, "the ring's the thing!"

Melanie mashes up two songs about school and growing up and uses it as inspiration for a mixed media necklace.

Lorelei was able to watch a couple of cool videos from Ronna Sarvas Weltman, and reviews them this week on the blog

Jean reviews a VERY cool DVD all about metal work, which is super great for beginners AND super inspiring for old hands at this type of jewelry creating and designing!

Andrew has another great Thursday Giveaway! Find out how you can win a Halloween-themed Trick or Treat Trios set of flexible beading wire from Soft Flex Company!

31 Skull Designs: Day Three...

In this design, I wanted to showcase the ceramic skull bead from Diane Hawkey. A few months ago, I asked Diane if she ever made any skull beads. Coincidentally, she had just finished up one based on a motif found on New England headstone. I'm happy to say that I was one of the first to get ahold of one! I strung it up with smoky quartz, garnets, labradorite, and lava from Bead Trust. I also used irregular Thai spacer beads from Saki Silver. The shibuichi toggle is from my family. At the base of the ceramic focal bead, I used a copper flower I made. I had originally thought that the flower sort of blended in and disappeared, so I domed it out to give it a more sculptural look. I'm debating whether or not to carry the copper components in my shop. We'll see.

Saturday, October 02, 2010

31 Skull Designs: Day Two...

I've been favoring designs with a lot of movement lately. This design has a lot, as it is mostly composed of dangles attached to a chain. I used hand-carved bone skulls from my Skull Shop, Czech glass from Raven's Journey, carnelian from Bead Trust, brass chain from Ornamentea, coconut rondelles from Talisman Associates and a bronze toggle from my family. I whipped up the copper headpins for this piece, but if you're not savvy with the butane torch, you can pick them up at E2SSupplies on Etsy.

Friday, October 01, 2010

31 Skull Designs: Day One...

I thought that for the month of October, I'd do a design featuring skull-themed components everyday. I thought it might be a nice way to celebrate the season and get in the mood for Halloween. For the first Skull Design, I made a pair of earrings. In this design, I used brown-colored niobium earwires from the Odyssey & Bead Expressions, crystal copper Swarovski Crystals from Fusion Beads, Czech glass from Artbeads.com, a variety of copper chain from Ornamentea, faceted pearls from Talisman Associates and the polymer skull charms from Lynn Davis of Expedition D. I love the warm, rich autumnal color palette and how cute the round-faced skulls are. The design is simple, with lots of movement.

I hope everyone enjoys the 31 days of skull designs!

Small Blessings...

When the toad lilies first started to bloom, I delighted in each and every single blossom. Their speckled petals and orchid-like shapes brought so much happiness! I thought that one or two was amazing. Now that fall is underway and the toad lily is really established and thriving, the arching stems are covered in dozens and dozens of flowers! The plants seem bejeweled with these small blessings.