Wednesday, June 06, 2012

The Small Things...

In a few hours, I'm heading off to Milwaukee for the Bead&Button Show.  This is perhaps the first time in a long time when I didn't feel an overwhelming sense of pressure, fatigue, and disappointment.  Generally before one of the big shows, I am rushing around at the eleventh hour trying to cram in as much as possible.  I make myself crazy with big plans that I ultimately can't complete.  I have a tendency to bite off more than I can chew and stay up the night before I'm supposed to leave trying to fit in as much as I can.

This time though, the kiln was broken.  So I couldn't squeeze in one more firing.  We only have one car and have to share it, so I couldn't run out on one more errand.  I'm flying out of a closer airport and while it will take eight hours to get there as opposed to one hour, I didn't have to schedule in an extra two hours to sit in traffic or force William to take a day off to shuttle me to Pittsburgh.    I forgot my jewelry kit at the store and I can't fuss over those last minute designs.  I accepted that I ran out of mailer envelopes and will just have to wait until after I get back before I can send things out.  (Don't worry if you ordered something during the Destash Sale, I placed a U-Line order and they should be waiting for me when I get back and I will send out the orders as soon as I return.)  Things that at first seemed like setbacks are actually responsible for this new acceptance.

All the small things that add up to make me crazy seem to be just what they are... small.  They seem like tiny little things in comparison to the big life events that are taking place.  After over twenty years, I have a brother again.  A huge pressure that has been squeezing at my heart has been released.  And I can just sort of be.  The obstacles that hurl themselves at me now are small and I can stride over them.  I can stop and appreciate the flowers instead of fretting if I need to check a bag or not check a bag.  I can stop and smile, happy to see my friends and family soon.  I can stop and be, and not worry about the small things.

11 comments:

Regina said...

Have fun at the show and as the saying goes "don't sweat the small stuff".

Patti Van said...

Sounds like you have found peace - way to go! Safe and fun travels!

somethingunique said...

Indubidably... Safe travel my dear and as yet again wonderful words to inspire xox

Joan Tucker said...

Andrew, people spend lifetimes and thousands of dollars to come to your stated conclusions. Yes Do not sweat the small stuff. Live, Laugh, Love Chill. Have fun at b and B Joan T

Alice said...

Hmmmm, I see a lesson learned here...


Enjoy the show! I can't wait to see what goodies you bring back!

Alicia said...

Oh, so happy you found your moment of peace! Enjoy the show, hope you'll have fun!

Jenni said...

It sounds like a weight has been lifted and you can truly smile again. Have a wonderful time at B and B.
jenni

Janet said...

Bless you Andrew..and have a great happy and peaceful time! ox

Cynthia@Ornamental Style said...

I'm trying to realize that the world will not end if I don't get some stuff done. Without all that stress and pressure that you've placed on yourself in the past, you'll be more present and able to enjoy the company of your friends at the show. Have a wonderful time.

taralinda said...

Wow- sounds wonderful, like you're in this cool Zen space. SO Happy for you. ;)

Jenna said...

Beautiful post-- have a wonderful time!