Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Completing the Circle...

Somehow in the rush that is the holiday season, I neglected to stop in to wish everyone a happy Yuletide season!  I do hope that everyone had a most spectacular holiday season and will have the brightest and best New Year ahead.

It's an odd time of year.  Usually it's so packed full of activities that it's hard to find time to do anything but what is most urgent and unfolding right in front of you.  But in the quiet hours, I'm left thinking about the people in my life who have passed away or are still missing.  I've been having the most vivid dreams about my brother.  Even though it has been over twenty years since he went missing, I still think of him.  I dreamed that he was sending a package from Germany and that it had a video of us when we were kids.  The images were scratchy – captured with a Super 8.   We were happy.  Playing in the yard.  All of us.

While I do still think of him, what I remember most is the void that was created when he left.  The memories of him before he was gone are harder to pin down now.  It has been such a long time.  So I am grateful for those dreams that come in the night, that hold a clarity that my conscious mind cannot.

Whether or not it is connected, I've also been thinking a lot about all the open projects that are still in the works.  I think it's time that many of them be completed.  It's not just a New Years resolution to declutter my life, both of the physical and mental piles building up, but a way to find closure.  So in the coming weeks, I will be addressing finally finishing many of the things that were set in motion, but have yet to be ticked off the list.  It won't be easy, in my zealousness to remain creative and fluid, I've started many things that have been pushed to the side.  I've let life get the in the way.

So if you've been waiting for something from me... know that I have not forgotten you and that things will be righted in short order.

4 comments:

Pine Ridge Treasures said...

Andrew - just wanted to wish you a Happy New Year and also let you know that I received the Nov. kit. I really like the mystery component - it is something that you made?

Beads2Die4 said...

Happy New Year Andrew. That is nice that your brother appears in your dreams and you are able to connect with him again in that way.

Alice said...

Andrew, I think about you and your brother, and how it must feel--the not knowing, always wondering, hoping. I'm glad the dreams that visit you are happy ones.

Have a wonderful New Year!

Softflexgirl said...

Happy new year, my friend.