Saturday, October 17, 2015
When I look back, I can see how different I was and can see how some of those dreams and aspirations developed and changed. I think the keyword there is, "changed". So much has changed and I imagine it will continue to do just that, like the ceaseless turning of time and the ever-changing seasons.
Looking back also made me realize just how much I've missed blogging. Even though I attempt to keep a semi-regular appearance here, I've noticed that things have gotten watered down and spaced out. I used to post content three or four times a day and was constantly uploading images and words. I could say that there was some kind of big gestalt in the blogging world moving towards quicker, more readily digestible content formats (and perhaps to a degree that's true) but the biggest thing to happen was the opening of the store. After that, time has been a scarce commodity. When I do have a bit of time, I feel guilty when I'm not working on something. I keep telling myself that these are the fledgling years and that this foundation-building time period is the most important. I keep struggling forward, repeating to myself that I am working hard now so that I can work less later.
But, when will later come?
If blogging has taught me anything, it's the importance of being mindful and capturing the moment. It's a lesson I have to remind myself. It's a lesson in not living in the past or living for a day far off into the future, but living for the day and finding a balance that is healthy, conducive to making things, and takes full advantage of the scarcest of commodities.